vanessa escovar

"why? they are akward and uncomfortable until they are funy and ben
stiller."

mazal tov!

i want jewish children.

muxtape

in light of erica and jessica creating some fab lists, i will make one.
my computer, however, is on its way to apple heaven (and rather
quickly). when i buy my new laptop, expect some (not so) killer jams
that probably only amuse me. i swear to god im ten years behind.

best thing ever

some random pictures

day off in santa cruz, set yr goals at fillmore, dead to me.

quarterlife

i'm at work right now. the band was supposed to be onstage 5 minutes
ago. i had to literally hide in the basement tonight in fear i would
assert that i'm quitting. the reality of that statement has yet to
fully envelope my small little head, but i know the amount of tears i
shed over my career choices and being stuck will not nearly fill the
buckets needed when i finally digest the fact that moving on means
redefining myself within my identity and the more personal self esteem
issues i will henceforth battle.
everyone asks me what i want to do. all i can say is "i don't know."
people think my job is a lot cooler than it really is, or maybe i just
think i'm a lot smarter than i really am.