i need a "getting over you" pill.

nick portalupi

"i'd say so

the first thing you might notice is that they were watching the bus

another thing you might notice is that nobody you are friends with has ever heard of cobra starship

so how much could their fans possibly matter"

the honorary title at slim's

mmmhmmm. i love this song, i love this man, i love this band.

In Honor

a great band, i will miss them.

gearing up

i hate the week of work before a vacation.  a normal work weeks seems to fly by so quickly that a friday seems like tuesday and before you know it, i'm writing a rent check again.

however, when all i want is for time to fly by, the exact opposite happens and it will feel like a month has passed when i finally get on that plane.

my guy situation is all a big mess right now.  usually it would be causing me extreme anxiety, but i have bigger and better things to be focusing on at this moment.  i can't wait to see you all, i'm so excited.

new york

STELLA

this reminds me of boston summer 2003. it also reminds me of azy and masek wearing matching parkas from my closet, being really stoned and pretty drunk with their arms around each other singing along to bittersweet symphony.

Champion @ POSI NUMBERS

this band means a lot to me. this weekend was a memorable one. after the car we came in broke down off the pennsylvania turnpike, me and my new friend somehow inadvertently hitchhiked the rest of the way to the kingston firehouse. i had two weeks worth of clothes in a duffel bag that was falling apart thanks to ATA airlines. it was an overwhelming feeling of relief when i showed up and all my friends from all over the country were in one place, three thousand and some odd miles from where i call home. these people are more than my friends, they are my family. while i may have "grown up" ; some will refer to me as a "dropout", hardcore will forever be a part of my life and the relationships i have made through this incredible scene i will take with me to my grave.
sorry to get all emo but i had to put it out there. this is also my favorite champion song.

obvs

you should probably expect more of this from me.

WOW

colleenbridget.muxtape.com

i dont know how to get that cool little tape thing on my blog.  

8 mile bike ride

vanessa escovar

"why? they are akward and uncomfortable until they are funy and ben
stiller."

mazal tov!

i want jewish children.

muxtape

in light of erica and jessica creating some fab lists, i will make one.
my computer, however, is on its way to apple heaven (and rather
quickly). when i buy my new laptop, expect some (not so) killer jams
that probably only amuse me. i swear to god im ten years behind.

best thing ever

some random pictures

day off in santa cruz, set yr goals at fillmore, dead to me.

quarterlife

i'm at work right now. the band was supposed to be onstage 5 minutes
ago. i had to literally hide in the basement tonight in fear i would
assert that i'm quitting. the reality of that statement has yet to
fully envelope my small little head, but i know the amount of tears i
shed over my career choices and being stuck will not nearly fill the
buckets needed when i finally digest the fact that moving on means
redefining myself within my identity and the more personal self esteem
issues i will henceforth battle.
everyone asks me what i want to do. all i can say is "i don't know."
people think my job is a lot cooler than it really is, or maybe i just
think i'm a lot smarter than i really am.